In my previous text, I began the account of the biggest change in my life, of such importance that I related it to the transformation of the caterpillar into a butterfly.
An incredible metamorphosis, which occurred with an ordinary person and now with a huge desire to tell other people that this is possible, however utopian it may seem.
And for you who wondered: How did this caterpillar become a butterfly? Here I am to report one more stage of this crawling evolution in search of beautiful wings, but before that I need to explain the great “cocoon” process, and only then will we get to wings.
It was no longer the Cocoon of Illusions, now we are talking about the Cocoon of Knowledge.
I received an invitation from my daughter's teacher to go to a psychoanalysis course. I had only had contact with psychology, never with psychoanalysis and soon the common question came to me: What is the difference between psychology and psychoanalysis? In a simple way, they explained that psychology works on the behavioral, the current conflict, while psychoanalysis works mainly looking for the origin of the conflict wherever it is, whether from memories of the uterine phase, whether in the course of our lives, or even in our unconscious. archaic, called collective, or individual, unconscious, thus described by instinctual experiences, repeated by human experiences.
I learned that all material, repressed or not, is in our unconscious, and in the archaic unconscious. For those who believe in reincarnation, the archaic unconscious represents all material from other lives. My God! 42 years old and I felt screaming in my chest “I have to help myself out of this caterpillar state!”. Gods or that's it!
With the last breath of strength I had left, I went! I was, even taken by the fear of being so many years without studying, by a feeling of inadequacy, a low self-esteem, yes, the same that had kept me in the caterpillar state for 42 years.
Upon entering the psychoanalysis course, I entered the Cocoon of Knowledge, and remained there for three years.
Then I got to know Jung's Individuation, Relationship Psychology, Becoming Being.
Fascinating path that propelled me even more. Today I know that this is the Soul of the Office. Being in the cocoon is not easy, but I learned from Individuation that it was not difficult, but difficult to reform.
When I started to get excited, I had to overcome laziness and the accommodation offered by the caterpillar state. I started therapy (mandatory in this course), the pain came, but a huge pain of coping, but the slow and gradual deconstruction began there.
Friends, I say that there is no way to walk this path alone. I realized that I had started the process of getting out of the very deep well that had placed me. For the first time in his life, the painful “looking within” began.
Towards the end of the course I started to study Access to the Unconscious. The time had come to “reconstruct my story, legitimize my BEING”. I love this technique, for seeing and feeling in myself the real effects of the lived experiences.
Content sought in dark places of my unconscious, defended until then, and which I gradually recognized, rectified and felt increasingly free. Holy therapy!
I found where was the one who could give me everything that I had been looking for in my life, in things, people and systems. Myself! (This will be a subject for the next text).
Trained in Psychoanalysis, I could now pass on to my patients this incredible path of therapy. What do you mean, crawling caterpillar, did you stay in the cocoon and now you could fly?
I flew…
Discovering that the true love of my life is in myself, that I don't need to depend on what's outside and that it doesn't depend on me… things and people that I can lose at any moment… was really transformative. True freedom!
The power of my life was in my hands again. Now just out of the cocoon state that kept me imprisoned, so that, for the first time, I felt truly free!
I flew with fear, I flew safe, I flew calmly, other times not so much, but… I flew!
I share with you, from now on, the life inside the office, cases that will exemplify the wonderful journey through the human unconscious in search of the dreamed balance. You will know cases of other caterpillars, which, like me, today discovered themselves with beautiful butterfly wings.
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